staying away from sunlight

i'm staying away from sunlight,
staying away from bright things,
staying away from light things,
staying away from happy things,
staying away from things that have smiles painted onto them so that they can never be real,
staying away from the doll with unblemished porceilan skin and apples on their cheeks because they constantly look through a person, constantly 'going through the eyesocket'.

i'm staying away from these things because they remind me of the moments i spent with you. those beautiful, precious, irretrievable moments that have been burned into my mind because after you left i had to think about something to keep my mind off the being that was next to me only seconds ago, so i thought of everything that we did together.
it was the only thing that kept me from going crazy.