self-esteem is a stupid word

pleasepleasepleaseplease
please don't just leave without telling me to be safe first.
you leaving isn't shocking, it's just that if you don't say it i might die.
and then you would have to remember that for the rest of your life.
and i don't want you living with that.
dyingdyingdying
[this isn't a joke/test]
ARGH. sometimes you make me so mad with your insensitivities! everything is not about you. in fact i would argue the opposite and say that you are nothing/insignificant/not wanted. stop thinking that you can walk in and out of my life like it was a door with a broken hinge. I AM NOT INANIMATE. i think you have issues. i think you have problems. i think that friendship died with your birth.
i'm stealing your luck
and never giving it back.